Today was suppose to go sch to meet wanzi for gym but i over slept (wanzi seem unhappy) SORRY..
Well its been 4 days since sch ended but I miss: Jun, Jiajia , Amanda , joanne & jinxuan already!!! will sure to plan a date for all of us to meet up kayyx girls...
anyway i screw up my exams can! really hope i can pass through i really don wanna retake any module..PLEASE LET ME PASS!!!!!!
Life everyday now is like this:"As I go and break the wall to freedom
I survive every day with a cloudy mind
As I go on this pacing heart gives up
It can't be helped now,
I still have a lot of things to do,
In one day I only get 4 hours of sleep(during sch days)
Everyday my physical strength gets poured into it
To become an adult, what does that mean?
what will we look like, will our personality change?
What kind of face will we have?
Are we gonna be in contact when we are adults?
Everyday is just a repetition.
There is not a place to go or hide,
Everyday is the same with no place for our feelings to go, we just have to sallow it back down.This feeling goes over and over, it gets me dizzy
spinning around & around hectically,
and we're still swimming through each day
some people say we think too much but are we suppose to not think at all?
is this the correct thing to do?
Am i suppose to accept things as it comes by?
Am i not to change the things going around me?
Am i not to change ME! ?
Am i not to do something?
I wander through every day (wander around with a blank head)
All i know is everyday i feel very lost inside...some days i feel nothing can be trustedand some days i feel like living with hope in lifeI feel like locking myself up but yet I'm afraid we will all lost contactbut sometime it feels like we're wasting our time..everything is so confusing, i feel so scare and insecure..
and some days i don wanna care
yet some times i care a lot about every single thing(too much)
Is this what growing up is about?now the future just seem like a blur!"Labels: the process of growing up suck
